Monday, October 23, 2006

Each song on my player has a certain season, if I may say that. Which means that only and only that song will play for a certain amount of time, which can be a lot, until my mom screams foul. Of course that applies to all the people I am around for a fairly prolonged period of time. I remember this time, when I looped 'Udaya Udaya' every day for a week, all the time. So my friend had to actually wonder what went on my head ... well thats what I am .. sometimes I wonder what I am ..
Who is this person who stares back at me? Who am I? What am I here for? Like they show in the movies, sometimes people melee all around me, and I seem to look around watching the drama unfold. And sometimes people all around seem to be frozen in time, and it seems like I go around them ... what would it be like to take a jump into nothingness? what would be like to jump up and float? I dont know whether I ll ever be able to levitate, but I am definitely gonna go sky diving. and para gliding as well. The unknown is always terrifying. Is this why we shy away from knowledge? Is the knowledge that we dont know so many things that terrifying that we shy away from learning? Of accepting that we dont know a lot of things? Of traversing or seeing endless expanse of anything? land, or water. With no horizon in sight? Why is there a joy when we see the sun rise? Is it because each morning we see a certain limit as perceived by us? In all its glory and light and brightness, I wish there is a little wisdom that can permeate my epidermis each day. And go deeper into my being. One of the wishes I have is that to float. Engulfed by light. No ground below, no sky on top. Arms spread. Feet together. And then curling in, turning, and then slowly becoming light itself. And then take form again. And come back. Feet feeling the ground. The big toes first. Landing like the ballet dancer who turns on her toes. Then the tips of other toes, the ball of my feet, and then finally resting my feet completely on the ground with water to just cover my feet. That seems to be like liberation to me. And that light I see as love. That would be bliss.
And the inspiration for this post. 'Dekho Na' from Swades. The music seems like magic to me right now

12 comments:

raj said...

Ah! Atlast a person who could objectively evaluate "Dekho Na". I was hooked on to this one when Swades soundtrack was released. Strangely, everyone and his aunt slammed this song at that time - just look at Swades reviews around that time. WHy? Because it was a reworked version of "Baba Kichu Kichu"? While the latter was really pathetic, mainly because of the nightmarish images it raised of a bloated Manisha, and which seems to have influenced everyone to ignore the song;s merits, Dekho Na is pure bliss. Sad people couldnt look beyond their "Ah! Rahman has rehashed his own song" routine.

Pavithran said...

Waw!!! I started getting crazy for that song too……it did take a while to sink in

I jus simply loved your thought process in this post……a clear testimony to the fact that Music can take you into that endless expanse and connect with your self.

Prabz said...

Is somebody got smitten out here?!

ILA(a)இளா said...

Happy Diwali Chin!

Arun Srinivasan said...

These kinda question often popps up in my mind.. Like Shakespeare said 'All the worlds a stage'.. We are being bogged down by many factors, family, friends, society, emotions, sentiments. I'd love to fly into freedom, but then, office time asks me to get going. ciao..take care.

Calvino said...

Hi Chinmayi
Good write up. Actually I used to do it all time. For the last 2 weeks, it's "Nenjam Ellam" from Ayutha Ezhuthu. I keep repeating the same song and I feel good about it.

Karthik Murali said...

the pal pal song (both versions) has made me more calmer and peaceful,
whatever my mind state would be.
anyways ur posts are getting more better and more complex for this small brain of mine to understand.
is there any hidden truth inside this post ?

Arun Srinivasan said...

hey chin, i've started a new blog at http://diamondthread.blogspot.com/ do check it out when free.

Anonymous said...

hAHA, my songs right now are karka karka and kabhi alvida na kehna.. i have no idea why even..!!! they're on some infinite repeat loop on my ipod..!

Subramanian said...

Nice thoughts...!

Swades - it's a beautiful movie. And I think everyone (the current younger generation in particular) should watch it at least once.

vijay said...

Udaya Udaya and Thikuruvi(KKS) are two songs I've looped for quite a long time. Listened to Swades yesterday after nearly a year. Current fav : Ahista Ahista. Amazing how certain songs can leave you with a feeling of inexplicable bliss!

adarsh said...

we want to know more about ur song in GURU movie.. can you post something on that... plz.....