Saturday, September 22, 2012

A divine romance...

Sometimes this thing called divine romance is well, romantic. To romance the idea of being free of attachments and being one with the supreme being. The romance of imagining the freedom, bliss perhaps that may come as a result of one such thing. The concept of chinmaya. The supreme wisdom and realization that results in profound joy. Nirvana also I guess.

Or one can romance the idea of living in a guile-less, deceit-less, pure, crystal clear world. Where green is the sparkling, bright, green that heals the eye and fairies fly near humans. Where morning dew is sprinkled with fairy dust and a rose with a scent heady enough to drench the surrounding town.

Sometimes I imagine floating up, into the inky sky speckled with stars, in the hope of finding that stillness. A stillness I really not know of but might be able to identify when I come face to face with it.

There are times I romance the tears, for there is no such thing as heavy while it rolls down your cheek, perhaps in a solitary trickle. Perhaps in two or three. And no such thing as the lightness it leaves behind as it dries out. 

There are times when I romance the fabled bliss that saints seem to have achieved. High up in the lofty Himalayas.

And there are times I romance the mountains, times I romance the lakes, times that I romance the imagination of watching the fast and furious world from outer space. 

I romance being away from myself. Far away and just watching this human being walking around in the name of Chinmayi. Doing all that she is supposed to do. 

Quite recently mom and I decided to do away with the concept of a Pooja room. After all, rituals are perhaps one of the first levels in God realization. There has to be a point where one has enough focus and concentration to do the pooja in your mind. My romance with temples and religious sites will never end.

The other day reading how Krishna explains the concept of Maya in an Amar Chitra Katha (Tales of Narada) made me think how weird it is. What we own, owns us. Ain't it? Or does it? 

Having read enough and more literature on past life regression on how people feel in the after-life, or even other than that, I am one of those people who speaks very nonchalantly of death. I mean I think its a liberating concept, based on all the literature I have read. And also based on some of our own scriptures that all this life and death thing is a cycle. Apparently even in the Tarot, drawing the card of Death usually means a new beginning is around the corner. 


But more than anything else I guess I romance the idea of the pitch perfect note and the truth in it. And truth itself. The agony would be in the wait though. The wait for the truth. And liberation.

9 comments:

Santosh said...

Yes we all have had these thoughts and feelings! But what is the way forward, that's the question isn't it? And how much you can/want to commit to it. That's something each of us must discover for ourselves I suppose.

A new reader to your interesting blog. :-)

Anonymous said...

To romance the idea of being free of attachments and being one with the supreme being. There you go. bonds morphing quickly into bondage.

Suneel Madhav said...

Didn't understand a word, but liked what you wrote, oh chinmayi, you are all the more intriguing.....

Anonymous said...

Hi Chinmayi,

Loved this post especially.... Great thoughts conveyed...This post reminds me of the works of Paramahamsa Yoganandaji...

Anonymous said...

"There has to be a point where one has enough focus and concentration to do the pooja in your mind"..

This point would be merger with THAT, as any other state resembling this would only be temporary... Ramana Maharishi was in the state of Sahaja Samadhi , in which there was no second object to workship, but sarvam ekameva ( Worshipper - worshipping - worshipped object )

What a state that would be !

Anonymous said...

Sathyama onnum puriyala Chinmayi....oru rangela irukupa unga blog ...:-)
Godspeed good people
Maheswari

Santhana ganesan said...

"I romance being away from myself. Far away and just watching this human being walking around in the name of Chinmayi."
The watching "I", the walking "I" and then there is a third element "romance". In the process of experiencing the non-dual nature we only add third dimensions. That is why it is advised by saints like Kanchi swamigal and even Bhagavan Ramana maharishi that do not drop your day to day poojas, but have an idea of non-dual nature. One day it (POOjas) will take to there.
Sri Aurobindo tells that "Sankara" travelled all over India thrice like a hurricane to preach stillness(Advaitham). Even such great saints are also subjected to criticism about their action and preaching.
So I take the liberty to suggest you to bring back the "pooja room" in you home! Sarva mangala prapthirasthu!

Suthanthira Kannan R said...

It is true that real happiness occurs only if one can remain in a blissful state 24 hours or atleast >80% of time. (Being able to look at the world and ourselves from outside).

May be possible only through regular meditation. It is mere waste of time spending lots of time on routine chores and calling ourselves "busy", leaving now time for meditation. That is my problem too.
Unless it is made a habit, difficult to persist with.

Anonymous said...

Chinmayi You Rock Sister